For the last few months I've debated whether or not to just delete this blog and move on with my life.
Since my last post, I've continued to read blogs about cuckolding where everything seems to work just fine, with few real life problems. I wish I could say the same.
The Mandigo Party I hosted at our place in March looked like it was going to be quite the party. More people showed up than I had planned, and everything was going fantastic until around 11 PM when the cuckold games sort of got out of control.
I don't feel like getting into the specifics of what happened right now, but my "wife" paula left that night and hasn't been back since. What happened had to be very traumatic for her. After one of the cuckold games I left to go into one of the bedrooms with two hunky black studs. When I returned, paula was gone. I haven't seen her since.
I've spoken to her many times since. I'm hoping she comes back. I love her and miss her. I hope what happened hasn't put us past the point of no return. I know what I want. She needs to decide what's best for her. I hope we can work things out.